Too much color blinds the eye, too much music deafens the ear. I'm someone with poor self-control, and every time I see others flaunt their gains, I can't help but feel tempted. I clearly said I would never touch QQQ again, yet I shamelessly jumped back in time and again, as if possessed. This week, in just two short days, I lost over 10,000 on QQQ, and my short positions bled endlessly. Especially yesterday, I bought 30 contracts of expiring options because I saw the fear index rising—I was sure the market would crash by night. I told myself, win or lose, I’d never touch QQQ again. Unsurprisingly, I lost. Looking at the 10,000+ I threw away these past few days, I could only laugh bitterly...